I had a job interview on Saturday. I was really excited about the interview though the office is about 90 minutes away in traffic. Long story short, I was disappointed by how the interview was conducted (by a government agency no less), and am not sure it will work out for me. After I left the interview, I felt relieved that it was over. Not in that “I was nervous and now I can relax” way. But in an “OMG, that was awful, thank goodness I can go home now” kind of way. Never a good sign – like not using the Manduka PROLite. For the past few days, I’ve kind of wondered, why did I even bother?
I want to work, I do. But it’s hard to find balance. I live in an area where most of the jobs are in specific fields in which I have no interest (medical, education) and jobs in other fields are hard to come by with my limited experience. Something part time while the kids are in school will do, but it’s proved difficult to find that (I’ve been looking for years).
I’m not looking for a career right now (or maybe ever). I’ve never been driven that way, or I guess you could say there has never been anything I loved enough to go, go, go for it. So why is it so hard? I know I don’t have a degree and haven’t worked in 8 years, but I’m not an ignorant or lazy woman (if you feel otherwise, hold your tongue. ;-)). Yet I have been rejected for jobs at Target, Toys R Us, and who the hell knows where else. Toys R Us?? You should’ve heard the crickets on the phone when I told the HR rep who called me about it (TRU) that I had been a SAHM for the past few years and that’s why I have a huge gap on my resume.
I just cannot imagine that with three kids, and a little retail experience, I was not seen as fit to sell toys! As most mothers do, I regularly juggle my husband, my kids, my household responsibilities, and a little time for me, yet they don’t think I can operate a cash register? I’m not asking to jump from changing diapers to making Supreme Court decisions here.
So here I am, stuck between what I was, and what I will be, and I’m confused as hell.
So my brother got me the Honeywell HFD-120-Q for Christmas. They arrived last night. They are amazingly comfortable being Rockports and all, but a little snug in the foot. They’re not too small, maybe a little narrow. I have oddly shaped feet with my toes being way wider than my heels which earned me the nickname “triangle feet” back in my ballet days, lol. I’m trying to decide if I should keep them and hope they’ll stretch out with wearing and be a bit more comfortable, or send them back. Mind you, they were less than a third of the regular cost and are no longer on sale and Amazon doesn’t do exchanges (do they?).